Monday, February 22, 2010

I'm blessed

I am blessed.

I went to my best friend's mother's funeral today. Although Betty's passing was a blessing for her, as she was in so much pain, it was very sad for everyone else. It was hard watching Betty's husband of 50 years grieve for her.

The funeral really has me thinking about our future. I love Cowboy and I want to grow old with him until the end of our time. I always wanted to be married for 50 years and I'm pretty certain that unless we find the fountain of youth that won't happen. Realistically, we can be married for 30+ years.

I wonder what it will be like in 30 years when we have grown so much as a couple and have become so dependent upon each other. I wonder if I will be able to survive if he goes first. I wonder if my heart can get any more fuller with love for him. I wonder if we will continue to be so committed to each other, that we can help each other through sickness and health. I wonder what it will feel like to see the strong man that I know, become older and weaker.

What I know about today, is that I am blessed. I am blessed to have him in my life and have his love and strength.

I hope that when it comes close to the end, that our love is as strong as Betty and Bud's love.

2 comments:

Monogram Queen said...

Amen! My parents were blessed with 55 wonderful years together and my Dad is lost without her but coping well with everyone's help. At least I HOPE he is. He appears to be. Stacy & I have been married 15 years and I can honestly say it is better now than it was in the beginning. I wish you & Cowboy a long, happy, enriching marriage!

Did it MY way said...

My wife and I had 43 wonderful years before she passed. It'sbeen 7years now without her. Life does go on for the living. Memories never die.
I wish the two of the best.

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