I lost it

I am a fair fighter. I pride myself on fighting fair. I don't throw in the kitchen sink and I don't name call. I try to stick to the issue and listen and then say what I mean. I don't like fighting. I don't like ugly fighting. I don't like name calling.

This morning. I lost it. I did everything I didn't like to. I yelled. I named called. I stormed out.

And then I felt like shit.

However, tonight is better and I get a little pampered when we make up.

We work it out. That's the main thing.

I don't want to

I don't want to go to work tomorrow.
I don't want to be in charge of anything.
I don't want to be responsible for anything.
I don't want to have to think about anything.
I don't want to have to make any decisions about anything.
I don't want to have any stress that builds up in my shoulders and makes my head ache.

Is is possible to reverse time and become a kid again with a summer vacation? If so, sign me up.

Yesterday

Yesterday was a seriously weird day. I left for work and had to go to our south office for a supervision meeting with staff there.

Then back to my office, where I couldn't find my keys. Drives me crazy when I can't find my keys.

I had a meeting there where this guy that I work with was seriously annoying. He thinks that he is right about everything and I try very hard to be kind but I seriously want to slap the shit out of him.

Then off to lunch where my husband met me and a few co-workers. We went to Caroline's favorite BBQ joint and after one bite of my food and cock roach appears on my plate. OMG! I don't normally freak out about that kind of stuff but OMG. The manager was very good about it and got me something different to eat and then took care of the tab for the whole table.

Then off to paint some furniture for work where it was hot and humid.

Then off to a meeting with my boss where I got lost on the way to his office. Seriously, I have driven that way many times but somehow, I got lost and was late for this meeting. We are taking over another company and it means lots of work for me in the next couple of weeks.

Then dinner with Cowboy and his son and daughter in law. Dinner was a little strained because the son has a few current issues going on,

It really isn't a day that I would choose to repeat. Glad it's done and over with.

Random pictures of Sadie

Here's my baby girl trying to get under the couch during a thunderstorm. Isn't she funny.

Birds in the house

Honestly, we have birds living in our house.

Lots of birds. Mostly babies. And very noisy.

Last year they birds found their way down the chimney and made a nest in the top of our wood stove. The birds can't get actually into our house because the surround of the wood stove stops them. But it doesn't stop how noisy they are.

They are loud. They go in spurts of noisiness.

I asked Cowboy about them and low and behold, he can't hear them. They are too high pitched for him. So I'm left to go nuts with the birds in my house!

The hunter went hunting

I guess I would be more correct in saying the hunter went fishing. Cowboy took off early this morning to spend the day with his buddy fishing. He came home with about 15 lbs of bass fresh from the farm ponds. Guess who will be having grilled fish soon.

I know I keep complaining about work but it doesn't seem to be getting better. Today I was accused of laying off staff because of a personal conflict between that person and myself. I don't have that power and I'm quite certain that human resources would laugh at me if I even suggested that. I guess everyone has to have someone to be mad at.

I need a huge vacation. Two weeks off, maybe three. Hell, I might as well take a month off. Target checker is looking very appealing right about now. I can only dream......

My Head is Swirling

Work was crazy, busy, and my mind is swirling. The next couple of months are going to be crazy and I don't know where the time to get everything done will come from. I am so overwhelmed by my job sometimes and this is one of those times. My head hurts with the thoughts that are in there just spinning.