I am Tired

I am one tired girl. The garage sale was a lot of work and was pretty slow most of the time. We had the sale again today. Towards the end, we just started setting things out by the curb and a family that bought about $5 worth of stuff kept loading up the free stuff. So our goal was met, we got rid of stuff and made a little money. I was really hot, tired and sweaty.

I started planting my flower pots when I was done. I ran out of potting soil so I was only able to get half of them planted. So the project will continue tomorrow night. Our yard is almost ready for the summer.

Cowboy took me out for dinner tonight. We love the Texas Roadhouse and have a little favorite waitress there. She was behind the bar tonight so she didn't get to serve us. Cowboy told our little waitress that if she didn't give us good service, her tip was going to Chloe. We got good service. Cowboy said that if he could take two girls home to raise, one would be Chloe and the other would be Taylor Swift. He is a dirty old man. The food was awesome and my tummy is full. I'm sure that I will sleep well tonight.

Garage Sale

So today was the day of the big Garage sale. It's a lot of hard work to get it all ready. I scoured the house and cleaned out all the nooks and crannies. There was tons of things. We were a little disappointed by the turn out despite my very cute garage sale signs. We made about $130 and plan on having the sale again tomorrow. Anyone one need or want things? Seriously, you can take anything of my hands cheap.

The best part of the day was just spending time with my husband. He is so fun just to hang out with.

My niece was in town for Rockfest, almost suffered a heat stroke and called. I picked her up and she's now sleeping in the spare room. She's been sick, which didn't help. I hope she'll be okay.

Busy, long day and I'm tired.

Oh, yeah. I forgot about last night. Dr.T and I took her oldest son to see Sugarland in concert. It was really good. But a late night. I think I need a nap.

Surprise, I played Golf

Well, surprise, surprise, today was a golf day. Last night, my little brother, who turns 40 tomorrow, and his family arrived just in time for dinner. Cowboy did a great job of having everything cooked and ready for us to sit down and eat. We most definitely had a house full. Eight is enough, that is for sure.

The family was in town for a doctor's appointment. Little Miss had a growth hormone test today. They were testing to see if she is producing any growth hormones. They won't find out the results for a couple of days. If she is not producing any hormones for growth, she will have to have six shots a week until she is 16 at great expense that most insurance companies don't want to pay for. I'm saying lots of prayers for her.

As a birthday present for my little bro, I bought him a round of golf. So Cowboy, Rob, Boo and I headed out to the golf course. (I worked 1/2 day and am off tomorrow.) Golf was not good but was fun being with my bro and nephew.

Boo got an invitation to play in a golf tournament next week. He's 13 and was one of 65 kids to get an invitation to play in a three day tournament. I'm very proud of him. He is an awesome athlete and even better, a terrific person.

My brother and his wife have done an amazing job of raising two great children. They have a lot to be proud of.

Cowboy lost control and is finally simmered down. He was really distracted the last 9 holes on the golf course and then when we got home, Sadie had gotten into the trash and the house was a mess. It's taken him about 2 hours to calm down and Sadie finally got out of time out.

C is gone for the night. Watch out, from a house full to just us. Bliss.

Golf, Golf and More Golf

Sometimes things happen and I am bewildered as to how they happen. I mean really, I'm a college educated woman and manage over 75 people and several millions of dollars at my job and I still get involved in things that I don't know how I get there.

I told Cowboy that I only wanted to play golf two days this weekend. I really wanted a day to myself at home just putzing around. And low and behold, we were at the golf course on Saturday, Sunday and Monday. Really, when did I say that was what I wanted to do. I think that man puts some kind of potion in my breakfast and suddenly I'm doing things that I didn't think that I consented too.

Now, I know that I could put my foot down and not go. Or I could take over total control of our comings and goings but that wouldn't really work well, I'm quite certain. But for the life of me, really, how did I end up on the golf course way to much this weekend.

The saving grace was that I really played well two of the three days. The third day, well I guess I was just over it. I swear, next time, this will not happen. I bound and determined for it not to happen again. Really, I'm not going to eat his breakfast. Wish me luck.

New On the Ranch

The past couple of weeks have been really stressful. It has really thrown Cowboy and I off our "square" having his daughter and grandson move in with us. I love the girl and the baby but it is really hard having them here. I haven't had much time to blog about it all and have missed some goings on that I want to make sure I remember.

Cowboy's birthday was last Sunday. He's not much on celebrating but we did play golf. I got him a new pair of shorts and a wireless mouse for my computer. (He started to pick a fight with me when he couldn't figure out how to use my mouse pad--stress).

He as been working very hard around the house putting in flower beds and doing lots of honey do things. So I thought I would share them with you all.


Here is a new flower bed that I have planted some peonies in. A few are poking up. I don't expect any flowers this year because they are so late but hopefully next year I'll get a few.

Last year, Cowboy rock lined the bed on the right and this year he did the left and the one straight ahead.

Cowboy got his old water pump fixed so water now dumps out into the pond.

Our neighbors gave us the trim out of their french doors, so we hung them sideways and dug up honeysuckle from my parents farm. The plants are starting to grow and flower. I'm psyched about these.

Here is the new patio set. We sat outside all night last night with the chimena going. It was really nice. Well worth the $75 dollars he bargained for it.

Last year, we didn't have a good start to our garden but this year, lookie. We have 15 tomato plants, 10 pepper plants, cucumbers, squash, peas, onions, beets, spinach, and lettuce. Not bad for city farmers.

I am totally loving my (our) home and my life with Cowboy. I am so lucky to be married to my Cowboy.

New Patio Furniture

When we bought our home, it came with a large deck and a big patio. We put our table and chairs on the deck but so far the patio has been unused, except for a wood pile. Until today. The great bargain hunter went to a garage sale and found a set. The lady wanted $225, Cowboy offered $75 and she said sold. Yeah! It's awesome. What a good guy I have.

We went out for a little family dinner tonight. C said her mom is looking at the rental house tomorrow and the lady agreed to rent if for $250. C is very excited, as am I.

C is going back to the boyfriends house for the night tomorrow so he can see his son and she can pack the rest of her things in preparation for the move. Please don't come to my house, I'm going to be chasing a naked Cowboy (hopefully).

I think we have a plan

I think there might be an end in sight.

My stress level has been extremely high for the past two weeks. I'm still doing double duty at work with a supervisor out on maternity leave and to my great joy she comes back on Tuesday. I am getting by at work but have lots of task that need to get done.

At home, Cowboy and I are so much better than earlier this week. We had a huge fight but it wasn't about us. It was about the situation we were dealt with and it's easiest to take it out on each other, unfortunately. We were able to talk it out and had great make up sex. (Okay, maybe TMI but it was good).

C has a plan. She is going to move to the small town where her mother lives, find a job there, rent a small house, buy a car from a friend of her moms and start living independently for the first time in her life. I think she will be leaving next week sometime. It's a really good plan for her and I hope it's the start of a whole new life for her.

Things are looking up.

Butt Crack

Some boys just learn young. I think we have one that is pretty facinated with butt crack and I can't even tell you about his interested in what hang around on the other side of that butt.

C may have a plan. One that has her getting her own apartment and job in the same small town where her mom lives. The end may be in sight. Cowboy and I have work through our fight, not about us but about the stress in our life. It's going to be okay, I keep telling myself.

Toilet Paper

Toilet paper, for the last two nights I haven't been able to sleep because of toilet paper. Weird, I know. Who can't sleep because of toilet paper. You might not be able to sleep either if toilet paper was a symbol for financial stress.

Let me get you there. Since we have had company living with us, we have gone through 5 rolls of Charmin Ultra in 6 days. How in the world can anyone one use that much toilet paper? It drives me crazy to come home and see a new roll on the holder. Seriously, how does that happen.

But the real issues for not being able to sleep, is that I'm totally freaked out about having two more mouths in the house to feed, etc. Cowboy is stressed. I'm stressed. Not a good combo. I'm actually not talking to him at this very moment because of a fight over toilet paper.

Crazy. Irrational. Real. Stressful.

Why I love my home

This is why I love my home. We live right in the middle of the city and we have foxes in the backyard and racoons in the tree in the front yard and less than a block away one of the busiest street in the city and two blocks from one of the busiest interstates. I love my home.

Trying Really Hard

I'm trying really hard to deal with the situation at hand and be okay with our house guest. But I'm not really doing so well with it. I didn't sleep well last night because I was worried. Worried about money, how long this will last, what's next and so on and so on. I want to be supportive of Cowboy and his family but I need to resolve this resentment in my head and heart. I keep remembering all the things that we went through last time and don't want that to happen again. Cowboy assured me that this time will be different. Some of the circumstances are different. I am struggling. Say a prayer for me.

My Mom

Here's a tribute to my mom, a day late.

One of the earliest memories of my mom is sitting on her lap when she was wearing pink flowered cotton shirt that was so soft. She smelled like baby powder. It was a very comforting memory for me because I felt so safe and loved. My mom has always made me feel safe and loved. Home has been my refuge from the hard world and mom is one of the key reasons for that. Mom loves each of her children unconditionally and yet different. She would do anything for each of us. She hurts when we hurt, she worries for us and with us, she celebrates with us and is extremely proud of us. Mom raised 4 very different children and was rewarded with a grown up close family that loves and adores each other. Mom is a reason that we are close.

I love my mother dearly.

Good Day

Today was a good day. We were all up early and on the road by 9am. We took Carly and Jared to meet her mother. They will be staying there until Monday. Oh how I wish it were longer. Cowboy and I got to spend the rest of the day together. We did a little shopping and went out for lunch. He had booked a tee time for us and it turned out to be a gorgeous day. Apparently, every other golfer in the world also thought so and or 4 hour round of golf took 5 1/2 hours. It was long a grueling. I haven't been able to play much this year so it was good to be out on the course. Our poor Sadie was in her kennel from 9-9, a long day for her. She was so glad to see us.

So on Thursday, Grey's Anatomy was interrupted by the news due to the tornado's in the area. They replayed it to day and I tivo'd it. I love that show! It was awesome tonight. When Alex said his vows, I was wishing Cowboy had said them. Why did I marry a man with no romantic bones in his body--maybe that's a little harsh, very few romantic bones in his body.

What a cutie!

Seriously, with a face like that how could you not just love the little bugger.

Truthfully, I'm not handling this very well. I have had a just load of stress just sitting in my shoulders. I'm so worried about how this will all turn out. This is not what I wanted at all. But I'm trying to be supportive. I'm afraid, I'm not doing very well at it. Cowboy got mad at me for a comment I made to the neighbor--my passive way of telling Cowboy I'm not happy. But I get it. If she were my daughter, I wouldn't want her on the street.

Please say a prayer for me. I need all the help I can get! One good thing, the guests go to her mothers for 3 days.

Quick Update

Cowboy's daughter and her baby moved in temporarily yesterday. She was with us two years ago and that didn't turn out so well so I'm not exactly thrilled with the situation this time. She was living with her boyfriend--FOB until yesterday when his mother showed up and told her that he didn't want her living there anymore and she was there to take her away. Of course she has no where to go, so she ended up here.

There was so much stress between Cowboy and I last time she lived her. I'm so afraid of that happening again and we're newly married--not a good way to start. I just felt like crying all the way home yesterday.

She has no car, no job, no money, no friends and her mom refuses to help out. Cowboy doesn't feel like he can let her live on the street which I get but really. We did this last time--6 months of lying, deceit, irresponsibility, etc. I just want to cry.

Oh my gosh

More later....but guess who is staying with us.

My Weekend

We have had tons of rain over the past several days. There are areas of the state with some serious flooding. With Cowboy gone, my brother asked me to go with them to Tulsa for my nieces' birthday. It meant that I would have to leave early Saturday morning. What I woundn't do for my niece. I left at 7, took Sadie to my parents and headed out. Here's a few pictures from around our hometown where the flooding is bad. It hasn't crept into the town yet.


I'm trying Caroline's trick and took pictures while I was driving.

I met the family and we drove on to Tulsa--4 hours from my home. We went to Incredible Bowl. It was fun. Bowling, putt-putt and lots of arcade games along with pizza and other buffet goodies.

I think that Little Miss was pretty happy. The big 11 years old. I think she had a great time. At one point when we were bowling, Little Miss turned to her mom and asked her if she had paper and a pen. When her mom asked why, Little Miss said, "I thought you would want to take notes." Funny little girl.

Sunday, mom, dad and I went out for lunch. Mom and I went to order my wedding album and then on to the big birthday party. What a spoiled girl. She was so excited on her big day. Good for her! Happy Birthday, sweetie.

Girls night out

Not so long ago, girls night out consisted of us putting on our cutest outfit. Getting all gussied up and heading out for some hot spot to socialize with cute boys.

Tonight, Dr. T and I went out. She was wearing her walking clothes and me, something that looks like a golf outfit. Our outing consisted of us looking at wedding pictures and video, shopping at Costco, eating at the sandwich shop and going home. Hmmmm...maybe I'm growing up (notice, I didn't say old).