Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Trying Really Hard

I'm trying really hard to deal with the situation at hand and be okay with our house guest. But I'm not really doing so well with it. I didn't sleep well last night because I was worried. Worried about money, how long this will last, what's next and so on and so on. I want to be supportive of Cowboy and his family but I need to resolve this resentment in my head and heart. I keep remembering all the things that we went through last time and don't want that to happen again. Cowboy assured me that this time will be different. Some of the circumstances are different. I am struggling. Say a prayer for me.


Lynilu said...

Prayer said.

But, MJ, you must remember the basic tenet of our profession: PEOPLE ARE CAPABLE OF CHANGE. Without it, there isn't a chance of success. If something happens, it happens, but you need to let Cowboy handle this and never slip in a jab about the past. You need to join C as his true partner, discuss things (not argue), but let him be the "enforcer."

Yes, it is hard. Been there, done that. Sometimes it worked, sometimes it didn't. But your worry is driving a wedge between you and C. Do not let that happen.

Best of luck. You do need luck. But you have to believe in the possibility of change more than you need luck.

Another prayer.

Caroline said...

How is Cowboys daughter acting this time...does she seem different than last time? Did she get hooked up with TANF and/or food stamps.

Saying a prayer for you and hoping it all turns out OK.

Monogram Queen said...

Definitely saying a prayer for you. I"m freaking out over my company coming tomorrow night but I know it'll be okay... for both of us!