Monday, August 25, 2008

More Eye Drama

You may be tired of hearing about my eye drama but if you chose to continue to read you will get one more dose of eye drama.

Since my eye surgery, my eyes have been dry. I use drops and my doctor suggested gel drops at night when the dryness seems to be at its worst. So that's what I've been doing. Yesterday was a particularly dry eye day. This is incredibly frustrating to me but I try not to complain and just deal with it.

This morning around 6a, Sadie woke up and started barking. She scared me to death but the worst part was that I woke up suddenly and opened my eyes. Just that simple action, felt like someone had taken a razor and shaved off my eyeball. The pain was intense. I couldn't open my eye and yet having it closed hurt. I couldn't cry and couldn't scream. I just kept saying over and over, it hurts, it hurts. Imagine someone taking their fingernail and scrapping your eye times 10.

I kept trying to convince myself that I was okay but I wasn't. I was finally able to navigate enough to take a shower. However, during the shower I made my next mistake and rubbed my eyes. Holy shit!!! Not only does my eye hurt but I can't see out of it. I just went thru a lot with my eye surgery and can't see. By now, I'm totally freaked out.

I called the eye doctor and they were able to get me in-- so instead of heading to work, I went straight to the eye doctor. Driving was the next challenge. My eye was very sensitive to light so not only is my vision blurry, it's watering like you would not believe.

I hate going to the doctors because my fear is that the doctor will say nothing is wrong and you are just being wimpy about this. My first clue that that would not be the case today was when the tech asked me to read the eye chart and I couldn't see any letter until the 20/200 letters came up. A big blurry C and D. Not good.

The doctor came in and checked my eye out. Same drill that I have been going thru for the past 6 weeks. He finally said, my eye looked like I described. The top layer of the cornea peeled off. He said it was "reoccurring cornea erosion". I checked it out and there are folks out there with amazing stories of how it has affected them. My eye is better tonight but still hurts. Doc said that I need to put an ointment in my eye (kind of like Vaseline) every night for 3 months. I will do what ever it takes to get better.

Essentially, my cornea isn't totally healed because of the surgery. With my eyes being dry, it hasn't healed back strongly and needs to strengthen so this doesn't happen again. Let's pray it works...I don't want to go thru this again.


Caroline said...

Dang, I am sorry that you are still having problems with your eyes. I hope your eye starts feeling better soon.

Lynilu said...

Ow, ow, ow, ow, OW!!!!

I'm not a sissy about much, but eye surgery scares the bejeebbers outta me. When the day comes that I need cataracts removed or something like that, I'll do it (probably with the aid of several heavy-duty tranquilizers!!), but holey-moley, leave mine alone till then!!

I'm so sorry you're having so much trouble. I understand the desire to be able to see without glasses or contacts as both are a nuisance, so for your sake I'm hoping/praying this settles out soon for you.

Monogram Queen said...

Aughhh I am cringing for you MJ. I hope your eye troubles are soon over - for good.
So sorry :(