Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Weekend Away

We have been talking about getting away for a weekend. With my upcoming surgery, Cowboy decided that he would make the plans. We aren't going that far away but we have tee times for Saturday and Sunday and a hotel room for Saturday night. We don't get do that very often and I'm the one that usually makes the plans. I was pleased the Cowboy took over and arranged everything. He surprises me sometimes.

Okay, so something is going on and I can't seem to figure out what it is. I have never weighed this much in my entire life and I would really like to lose about 30 lbs but I don't seem to be motivated enough do make any changes. I'm trying to figure out what it is about diet that I don't want to change. I hate the way my clothes fit. I hate that I have cute summer things in my closet that I can't get into. I hate that I feel slow. I hate that my feet hurt more than they used to. I hate that my waist is as round as my butt (that's round). I can't stand looking at myself naked in the mirror. And yet, all I do is talk about losing weight and don't do anything about making a change.

I really need to start looking for the underlying issue. You would think that being a therapist, I would have insight into my own behavior. I guess not. I've got work to do and I need to start yesterday. UGH


Caroline said...

I am glad you guys are going to get away for the weekend. Sophie and I are looking forward to having Sadie as a guest.

I am in the same boat as you in terms of wanting to lose weight. I really want to, but I am still making the wrong choices when it comes to what I am eating.

As far as being a therapist and applying what you know to your own is a lot easier to turn to someone and say "this is what you need to change" then to look at ourselves and say "I need to change this or that."

Don't be too hard on yourself. I have a couple other things I want to tell you, but I am going to email you.

Hang in there.....

Monogram Queen said...

I need to lose about 30 lbs too but I just do not have the motivation. It sucks. I hope you have a wonderful week-end away. Sadie is in good hands with Caroline and everybody deserves a break sometimes!

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Anonymous said...

I have no input into the problem you are having and no room to talk.
I have the same problem, only with a lot more weight to lose. I'm sure you could tell me what my issues are and you would be right. I know what they are too but can't seem to bring myself to do anything about them.
I think you are great the way you are but I know this is bothering you.

Have a great weekend away!
I'm sure Sadie will have a great time being spoiled by Caroline.


MJ said...

Thanks for the support. I guess maybe I'll put together a plan and just do it and hope the motivation comes.