Tire Changing Story

Remember how I told you that we stopped and changed a lady's tire on our way home from our family Christmas dinner and there was a story that went with it. Well, I wanted to let you on it before I forgot it.

So as we were driving home, we see a car stopped at an intersection with a person getting ready to change a tire. We weren't sure if it was a guy or woman so we drove on past. It was a she, so Cowboy backed up and I asked her if she needed help. She did. She couldn't find the jack so Cowboy bundled up and I sat in the truck while he got out and helped her.

This is how the conversation went:

Cowboy: "We weren't sure if we should stop or not, you never know what kind of person you are stopping to help."

Lady: "Well, I appreciate you stopping to help me."

Cowboy: "To make sure we are safe, I had my wife stay in the car with a 45mm ready in case this didn't turn out well."
(okay, so he was only kidding at this point. We don't carry a gun.)

Lady: "I know what you mean. I have my conceal and carry license and carry my gun in the car. It has a laser on it so all I have to do is point and shoot. I just put the red dot on them and pull the trigger."

Seriously--what was he thinking and what are we doing here. Cowboy said she was a traveling RN and used the gun for safety. How does he have these conversations?

So much for Balance

At 5p when I'm still at work, I thought about balance and guess what. I stayed at work. I should have left. I could have left. But no, I just stayed there until 6p and then I left. I called Cowboy on the way home and let him know that I was going to make a new commitment to him that in 2010 I would do thing differently. I want to spend more time with him than I do at work.

Cowboy has been great for the past couple of night. I've come home to a toasty warm house (which is hard this time of year just heating with wood) and we've had super good meals both nights. He is a good cook so I feel really blessed.

We are leaving next week to go on our Honeymoon and I'm so excited to spend 4 days away with him. I've promised no computer, no phone--just total focus on him. Life just keeps getting better and better and we've only been married 9 months. I can't wait to see what is in store for us in the coming year(s).

Balance

I have been thinking. My life is not balanced. I have been working way to much and taking care of myself way to little. I need to make a change and get back to being more balanced in my life. I need to:

-work less and take care of myself more

-get back to church on a regular basis and pray regularly

-focus on what sparks my creativity

-eat better

-exercise more

-connect with friends

I'm going to work on a plan. I need to work on a plan. I have to make changes because I can't keep going like I am.

Christmas Time

I can't believe that Christmas 2009 has come and gone. Where did the year go? I've been remiss in blogging lately and have several things that I want to blog so I can remember them. Hopefully I will get caught up this week.

Wednesday night, Cowboy and I loaded the SUV and headed out for the farm. It rained all the way there and we were soon very excited that we left when we did. Mom and Dad were thrilled to have us home.

Thursday, our family had it's gathering. We have been getting together on Christmas Eve since I was a little girl. Even though it has evolved and changed, I look forward to it every year. My brother and famliy arrived early and we played a few card games. We loaded the cars and headed to the community center for our Christmas dinner. Mom and dad's house has gotten to small for the family, so we meet at the center. Everyone in the family was able to make it except for my nephew and his kids, the weather kept them away. We had a good time playing games, eating, visiting and just being together.

Unwrapping the gifts happened in a flurry. I think everyone was happy with what we got them. I got Cowboy a new golf hat, gym shorts and a western shirt from my parents and he was thrilled. My mom gave me money to shop for myself, those were the only presents I neglected to buy. Mom was a little disappointed but I promised her I will go shopping.

We got Dad a new flat panel TV from us kids and I think he was surprised and happy at the same time. Mom got a ton of good stuff and was very happy with all of her loot. They were tired but happy by the time we got home. Everyone made it home safely which was the biggest blessing on Christmas Eve. The weather was awful and it took some time to drive home but once we got the calls that everyone made it home safe, we could breathe a sigh of relief.

Christmas day was quiet. Just Cowboy and I and the parents. My sister came over with her hubby later for a game of cards and they shared supper with us. I had made a pot of ham and beans (my mom's favorite) which I came to regret later. Cowboy had the worst gas in the world. He made the whole living room smell like butt. Thank goodness Mom and Dad had gone to bed.

Saturday was another quiet day at home. Finally around 4p, I took off and went to my brothers to visit them. They got a new puppy that was adorable. It was fun to spend a couple of hours with them.

Today was Mom's birthday so Cowboy made her a good breakfast. We visited a couple of hours and then headed back to the city. I was glad to make it home. I love every minute of being around my family. It's the holidays that make me think that I might want to move back there some day to be around them.

Sick and Tired...really

I have been on the go for the past week. I can't believe that I haven't been to my blog in a while. So here's my recap. I don't really recall last week. I was working a lot a usual. I went to a great jewelry party and bought some great Christmas presents for my mom, best friend and daughter-in-law (however, I don't say those words out loud).

I had a neat work experience on Thursday. We received a generous donation that went towards the women living in transitional living. They got to spend $100 on each of their kids for Christmas. They were very excited and grateful. It was a very neat experience to be a part of.

Friday night, I made 5 dozen sugar cookies...stockings, gingerbread men and balls. However, I only had green frosting so they all look the same. Green frosting with little beads on them.

Saturday morning, I woke up feeling like total shit. I hadn't taken my allergy medicine for a couple of days. I didn't want to fill my script because it cost $50. I just figured since we had a hard freeze and weren't in the moldy building so I should be fine. Wrong. I've been paying for it ever since. I got my script filled that day. Guess what, it was only $10. They came out with a generic for the medication. I haven't been sleeping well and I'm congested with a cough. I'm tired and cranky. Oh lucky me and those around me.

Saturday night, we went to Cowboy's son's house for dinner. It was a very nice Christmas dinner complete with good china and great food.

Sunday, we made a trip to the farm for a big family dinner with all the cousins. It was good to see most of them. (a few were gone) I didn't feel well most of the day but made it. On the way home, Cowboy changed a tire for some lady that would have had to wait 2 hours for road side assistance. (I'll tell the story of their conversations sometime)

Monday, work all day on the go most of it. Then shopping. Home to package 30 packages of deer meet all while trying to shoot Cowboy with the same gun he used to shoot the deer. I'm not sure if he's grumpy or it's that I don't feel well, but he is on everyone of my nerves that don't feel well. Watch out buddy.

I then made three personalized pillows that turned out adorable for my girls in Florida. I'll post a picture, they are really cute. Then to bed at 10:30p. I didn't sleep well last night. I woke up thinking I was drowning in my own snot, congestion, etc. I was up early and off to work early.

Tonight was more shopping and then home to wrap lots and lots of presents. I'm not done with shopping yet. I haven't gotten my little crafty things done for people.

I guess I can only do what I can do.

behind

I am so far behind this holiday season. Why? Why can't I get caught up? Work....Tired...Please give me some motivation to find the energy to get what I need to get done for Christmas.

Shopping

I am so proud of my husband. I wanted to go shopping for Christmas and asked him if he wanted to go with me. He hates shopping and hates it especially around the holidays. But he surprised me and said that he would go with me. He was ready around 11a and off we went. Our first stop was the mall. I found a couple of things that and he snuck off to buy me a Christmas present. I know that he bought me a couple of charms for my Pandora bracelet but I don't know which ones. Then it was off to the Western Store. Look who got some new boots. Aren't they awesome. Cowboy picked them out and I tried them on. He says they need to be wrapped up and put under the tree until Christmas....we'll see.

We had several more stops to make and he was such a trooper. My heart is full.

The big buck

I have forgotten to mention that Cowboy shot the big buck. He was so excited. I have never heard him like he was the night he shot the buck. He said his heart was pumping and he had adrenaline pumping through his veins. He had to drag the buck 100 yards in the dark. The buck was a 12 pointer with a drop tine that had two points. He debated and debated on whether or not he should get the head mounted. Being the good wife, I told him that I would get it mounted for him for Christmas. He found a taxidermist and we took the head in today. (Yeah, it's out of my freezer.)

We also had to get the pictures he took developed and several 5x7's made to send to folks. I swear the boy is just like a kid with a new favorite toy. That is all he can and has talked about for the past 5 days.

Gotta love this man.

So Angry

Cowboy came to the man's room last night.

C: Come with me upstairs, I need to tell you something.

Me: Okay, what.

C: You know that sometimes we have family that really disappoints us and sometimes they take advantage of our kindness.

M: Yes. (where is this leading??)

C: Well, that can be said for this.

M:(WTF?)

C: Well, I was going through my checkbook and trying to balance my checkbook and was sure the bank made a $100 mistake. Then I got to looking and there was a check that went through that was out of order. Here it is.

M: Really!!??!!

The daughter repaid us when she stayed with us the night before our Thanksgiving dinner by stealing her dad's check and forging a $100 check. I am freaking pissed as hell. I can never imagine stealing from my parents. I'm just boiling about this. Cowboy doesn't make much money and has to work hard for what he does make. Plus, before she left, he slipped her $40.

Boiling, just pissed and boiling.

Christmas Cards

On a whim, I decided to make Christmas cards. I finished and last night we got them all addressed and Cowboy took them to the post office this morning.

While we were addressing the cards, I asked Cowboy if his other wives sent out Christmas cards. He said they did but "no one did it as well as me". Awwww. (It's a semi-compliment)

Crappy not crappy day

Crappiness-
My new supervisor that was supposed to start today to take a huge load of work off me, didn't start today and won't be coming to work because of the crappy pay. Sucks for me!

The Health Department came today and shut down my kitchen. Really sucks for me!

A co-worker's mother died. Sucks for her.

On a happy note...Cowboy is home. Yeah for me!

Lazy Day

I feel like I have been a total bum today. My mom was supposed to come up and spend the day with me. She wasn't able to come so I spent the whole day alone (except for a 15 minute visit with my neighbor). I am totally bored. How did I ever live alone for over 20 years?

I was able to get my Christmas decorations up, the lights put up outside, and one craft project done. I also am attempting to toast pumpkin seeds. (We still had pumpkins on our front porch.) I'm getting the laundry done.

Cowboy has moved on and traveled down to my parents farm. He is going to try to hunt there and see if he can get the trophy buck. I'm glad he is having fun. I miss my boy. This house is a big place without him.

He's gone. My Hank has left me. Well, at least for 10 days. He went deer hunting and I am hoping he has a good time and brings home the big one. I miss having him around here. He really does so much around the house, especially in the winter. We heat the house only with wood and it takes a lot of work to keep both wood stoves burning and heating the house. I think that I take it for granted that our home will always be warm. When he's gone, it makes me realize how much work he does to keep the home fires burning.

Sometimes, I'm surprised that I miss him as much as I do. I lived by my self for such a long time and prided myself on my independence. It's amazing how quickly we moved into a routine that takes both of us to make it work. I love that fact that I can give up some independence but still know that I can take care of myself if I need to.

I think at times I take Cowboy for granted and I don't want to do that. I want to always show him that I appreciate him and love him for all that he does for me. I need to remind myself that he doesn't have to do everything that he does. I know he does all he does because he loves me. I want to show him that I am his partner, team mate and equal so I probably should step up my game.

Random Questions

Random questons that just rattle in my brain....

Do you ever wonder what it would be like not to have those pesky judgemental thoughts run through your brain?

Do you wonder if you really prayed, I mean really prayed, to win a million dollars, you would?

Do you wonder if you are really living the life you were supposed to live, or if at some point or twist, you were mixed up with the really happy chick that has lots of money and a perfect life?

Do you ever wonder if you hadn't met your husband (or partner) if you would have found someone better or worse than you got?

Do you ever wonder if you have bad karma for something you didn't intentionally do?

Do you ever wonder if you could pull of being complete slug and just live off other people?


Hmmmmmm

I did it....

I have worked for my company for 15 years and for each of those 15 years I have graciously accepted the salary that they gave me. However, I had a hard time sleeping the other night and decided that it was time to ask for more money. There are folks in our agency that make more money than I do with 1/2 the responsibility. So I pulled up my big girl panties and told my boss that I wanted to talk with him. I laid out my case and asked for a salary that was fair compared to the work that I do. He said he would look into it. I'm hopeful that something will change soon.

Home

There's no place like home, there's no place like home, there's no place like home.

Can you tell that I'm glad to be home. The farm was definitely relaxing as there wasn't anything to do. I did help Mom get all the Christmas decorations put up but really needed to help her purge the 50 boxes of decorations that we didn't even open up. She was happy to have the decorations up and done.

My Dad pulled a muscle in his stomach and it was bothering him all weekend. I can tell that my parents are slowing down and their age is catching up with them. I guess that I always hoped that father time wouldn't catch up to them but I don't think the fountain of youth works yet.

Tonight is about resting and relaxing and doing lots of laundry. But I'm glad to be home.

Thanksgiving

Just a quick post. We came down to the farm on Wednesday and I haven't left except for a few short trips to town. I fixed a big meal on Thursday. Once again the family didn't communicate well and if we had changed it to a really late lunch, we could have all ate together. All the siblings were here at one time or another but not all at the same time.

Yesterday, I worked on a few crafts and just hung out with the momster. We ran to town to pick up a few things and then it was back to the farm. Cowboy has been an outdoorsman and had done a lot of "riding" around with dad.

Today, Mom and I have been putting up all of her Christmas decorations. It has been very uneventful. I think the leftovers are at a minimum and tonight will be ham and beans night.

I'm getting a little antsy to head back to my home. I miss it but also love being on the farm. I'm lucky to have the best of two worlds.

Work

I know that I have posted a lot about how crappy work has been....well, I have no big task looming on the horizon and the stress is going down. Knock on wood and everything wooden around me and you

I have about 8 evaluations to do but that is just busy work and not really that big of a deal to get done. I'm excited that this is a short week and I'll be going home to spend the long weekend with my mommy and daddy. Four days down on the farm, but I will be relaxed. (or worn to a frazzle by mom).

Week End in Review

I'm not quite sure where the weekend has gone and why my blogging seems to get further and further apart so I thought I would just hit the highlights.

1) Thursday--hmm not sure what happened--oh, yeah, the State was still auditing our programs and I was sick of it.

2) Friday- The State left and Cowboy and I went out on a date. We had dinner at Wendy's and saw The Blind Side. It was a good date after Cowboy simmered down. He gets all wound up about traffic and waiting in lines for dinner.

3) Saturday- Went to the grocery store for Thanksgiving dinners supplies and left my purse in the shopping cart in the parking lot. Had a small heart attack. Went back and some man--truly an angel--turned it in with everything still inside. The Cowboy and I went golfing. The man needs some temper control lessons. Then off to watch the UFC fight. Love em.

4) Saturday-Sunday--the daughter showed up to stay all night with all of her belongings (an attempt to move in) but left early Sunday morning after her father had a Reality Check with her.

5) Sunday--We had dinner for Cowboy's "Family" there were 7 of us and the food turned out better than expected. All the boys had two huge platefuls and everyone enjoyed a late dessert. I love that I was able to do this for Cowboy.

Everyone's caught up.

Random Thoughts

1) We are half way done with our state audit. The clinical part went really well and the billing part is a pure pain in my ass. I want to drop kick those bitchy folks.

2) My iPhone seems to be behaving itself so hopefully I won't have any more problems.

3) I am on week two of my new workout program and I am just down right sore all over. I decided that I had gotten lazy in my workouts so I'm stepping it up a notch and although, I feel better, I'm sore.

4) Cowboy made brownies and bought ice cream today for dessert.

5) I wonder why I don't seem to lose weight maybe because of #4.

6) I haven't had to travel any with my job this week and I still can't seem to get anything done, see #1.

7) I am extremely tired of high maintenance staff, well, as a matter of fact, that applies to state auditors.

8) I would almost pay $1000 to just lay in bed all day tomorrow and eat brownies and ice cream--conflicts with #3 but explains #5.

9) For a much as I love my Cowboy, sometimes he absolutely bugs the every loving shit out of me. Like he did, 15 minutes ago.

10) I have really stinky gas tonight--to many black beans in my soup at lunch and then my Cowboy put them in my dinner tonight. I guess he'll get what's coming to him in bed.

11) Oh yes, I was walking in the hallway after eating the beans, and just farted the loudest fart I had all day. I just kept walking and pretended it didn't happen. So much for black bean soup.

Technology

So I love my iPhone. My Cowboy thinks that I'm addicted to my iPhone. He says that I can't live without it. I have promised that when we go on our honeymoon--no phone and no laptop.

However, for the last two weeks I have wanted to throw the damn thing in the trash! I've called it a piece of shit, cursed it, and wanted to throw it out the window at the nearest big object that would smash it to smithereens.

The POS would lose connection and I would not get phone calls, connect to FB or check my emails. It would appear that I would have a full battery and it would really be dead. What ever was happening was running my battery down.

Last Friday, I took it to the store and they put in a new sym card. That worked for all of a day. Curse word, curse word, really bad curse word.

So today I finally called Apple support and guess what, my operating system had bugs and there was a newer version out there that fixed my problems (supposedly). I downloaded it tonight so we'll see how it works in the next couple of days. The phone is so smart, why didn't it tell me that there was another update version.....damn technology.

Thanks Giving

At this time when everyone is expressing their thanks for the things in their lives, I'm feel so sad for my Cowboy. Cowboy does not have good relationships with his family members and has very little family support.

Cowboy is the oldest son in the family and the second of five kids. Donna is the oldest and left home at the age of 15. She has been away from here ever since, living on the east coast. Donna has lots of health issues. She is very poor and lives in very unstable situations. She was recently in a car wreck and is now living in an assisted living home in a wheelchair. Donna writes Cowboy letters and then Cowboy writes her back. He hasn't seen Donna for years and probably won't see her anytime soon.

Then there is Cowboy's brother. Ron has a drinking problem and is diabetic. Ron moved to Pennsylvania to get away from the trouble he was having here. Cowboy will occasionally hear from Ron but not often. Usually it's calls like Ron was in a diabetic coma and almost died. Or Ron got in a fight and got totally beaten up. Cowboy hasn't seen Ron for 6 years.

Finally, there is the drama of the two younger sisters, Robin and Sandra. These are the two sisters that joined the church that kicked their mom out after his dad died. It was kind of a cult church. A couple of years ago, Sandra's husband died and Cowboy went to the funeral. Since that time, Robin went wild and left the church, she divorced her husband and the husband married Sandra. Cowboy has no contact with them.

I can't imagine not talking to my brothers and sisters and having my parent no longer with me. I'm having a small Thanksgiving dinner for Cowboy and his family. It's my attempt to support Cowboy build a family. We have invited his son and DIL, his adopted mom, and a buddy of his. Cowboy is struggling with his daughter so I'm not sure if she'll be coming to dinner.

I just want to remember to be thankful for my family, no matter what.

Last Call

Cowboy and I have been talking today about the facts that it seems like we have been married for a couple of years. He has been amazing today. He fixed every meal for me today and has just allowed me to spend the day on the couch.

All this started me thinking about the time before Cowboy. One of the things that I was always afraid of was that something would happen to me and no one would know. When I traveled, I would call my parents to let them know that I made it to my destination. I never had anyone to share my day with. But now I do. I love having a last call of the day. I love that Cowboy is my last call. I am so in love with this man and can't believe how truly awesome he is to me daily.

I know without a doubt that he will always be my last call.

My Saturday

So how does an overworked, overstressed me get to spend my Saturday.

Well, I start with a 7a gym call where the recently discovered stair master kicked my big fat ass for 25 minutes. Then the treadmill called my name and finally the weights got a little bit of attention.

Breakfast at the local Town Topic and then off to work for the next 5 1/2 hours. Yes, I said work. Although, I got a lot done, I would have much rather been playing golf with my husband in drizzly 50 degree weather.

Then off to a wedding reception. We got to see some old friends, which was nice.

Tomorrow, I swear that I'm not getting out of my jammies and not leaving the house for nothing. I'm napping and may just be on the couch all day.

Busy Week

Once again it has been a busy week at work. Working long hours and still have so much to do. I keep saying that it has to get better but it hasn't. Next week the state comes for a certification visit. They want all this stuff, yuck. I have so much to do. I could work all weekend and still not get everything done.

Things really need to get better......

Oh Dear, Oh Deer

This is a post that may be TMI--so don't read on if you don't want to know more.....

First, the not so bad part--Cowboy found a deer in the back yard with a huge rack. So we have been on deer watch for the past three nights. Cowboy drags me outside to walk around, drive around or stand on the back porch several times a night to see if we can catch a glimpse of the big buck again. (He just walked out the door for a deer check.) Oh deer!

So while I was on my vacation, I noticed that my friend was eating Activia yogurt. She said that she was impressed that it really seemed to work. She was pooping regularly. Hmmm... I am not a regular pooper so I thought I would give it a try. I know it says that if you eat it regularly for 14 days it will improve your digestion and help you stay regular. Well call me crazy, but I think that after 2 days it's working. Big poop this morning. So much so that it didn't flush all the way. Can you imagine what Cowboy had to say? Oh dear....

Real Score

So when we play golf, we each take a "first tee box" blues shot if needed (aka. re-d0) to start off the game. Then we give each other a mulligan on the front 9 and one on the back 9. (aka. re-do's) Most of the time, I try really hard to stick to this and play my score as close as possible. However, there are times that I will not count a stroke here and there because of circumstances that happen (Cowboy talking in my back swing, the ball going in the rough and not being able to find it, etc.) You get the picture.

Yesterday, we played with Cowboy's son and his wife. It was a beautiful day and great to be out on the course. I have hurt my elbow and thought that I would struggle on the course but decided that I just needed to stay focused and play my game. I played a fantastic first 9 holes. I it the green on my tee shot on a par 3. I hit another drive 40 yards from the green on a par 4. Hit a pitch shot off the green and into the hole for a birdie and so on. I was on fire. I shot my lowest 9 holes ever....42.

The second 9 started a little rough and not a many remarkable shots but still pretty good for the day and my elbow. On number 17, I hit a monster drive but at the same time, something popped in my elbow....not good. I finished pretty good and didn't make many bad shots, I did have to take two mulligans and ended up with a 48. It was the best round of golf that I ever played. My lowest had been a 97 but I was one stroke away from being in the 80's which is awesome for me. I felt pretty good because that was a legitimate score (aside from the 2 mulligans).

Cowboy and his son shot scores in the high 80's. Now they on the other hand gave themselves a few breaks. Didn't count lost balls or balls in the water. But that's not my concern. I figure everyone plays their game how they play it and whatever they want to do is fine.

So on the way home, we were recapping the day and I was pretty excited about the day. I made a simple comment about wondering what their scores (Cowboy and the son) would have been if they had kept score the right way. Oh my gosh, was that the wrong thing to say. For the next 20 minutes I heard a tirade about score keeping and getting breaks and not counting strokes and on and on and on and on. So much so that I stopped talking and tuned Cowboy out. Really, be a man and admit that you take a few liberties.

Come to find out, Cowboy thought I was calling him a cheat and implying that I would have beat him. So not what I as saying. But hey, if the shoe fits....

Lesson learned...Let him play his game, I'll play mine and I'll kick the shit out of him but not mention it again...except for maybe here and then I'll laugh about it.

Close Call

So when I got home from Florida, Cowboy picked me up from the airport and asked, " So do you want the good news or the bad news?" 'Bad news.' "C is getting evicted from her apartment and she's moving in with us on Thursday." Oh, welcome home to me.

We have tried this twice. Both time, didn't work out so well. Is the third time supposed to be a charm? I'm so not happy about this.

Last night- Cowboy told me that C will not be moving in with us. She'll be moving in with her mom. Is it wrong of me to be happy about this?

I really won't mind if she were helping herself but she is just expecting everyone to take care of her. Who knows what the future will hold but for now, a close call was avoided.

My Trip to Florida

I miss my friend. I miss my friend alot. She is one of the few people in this world that I can be totally open and honest with and who always accepts me for me. So I was thrilled to finally being able to go see her and spend time with her.

I got to Florida on Thursday. She picked me up from the airport and we were off to pick up the girls from school. Addie and Hannah just said hi--typically 8 years old stuff. But sweet little KK came up to me and gave me the biggest hug and kiss. She was so sweet. Then it was off to home. That night was not very eventful.

Friday was a big day. We were up early to go to school for KK's Halloween party. Sherry and I went for breakfast first and found a wonderful store that we had to go back and check out. The Halloween party was fun. 20 kindergarten students trick-or-treating at all the other class rooms and then off to visit the retired nuns. Then it was our turn. Sherry and I headed out to the spa and got a full pampering. Massage, pedicure and manicure. My guy gave me the best back rub ever. If Cowboy would have been fine with another man living with us, I would have packed him up and brougth him home.

The relaxation was somewhat short lived as we took the girls to the Halloween Festival at the school. Imagine 100 screaming, running Catholic school kids and a loud DJ. The best thing--they served beer and wine.

Saturday was spent at the soccer game and then shopping for additions to Halloween costumes. Trick or treating and then a party next door where Sherry and I sang our hearts out with the Karoke machine--okay so it was one song and we sounded somewhat okay. "Oh what a night, late December back in 63"

Sunday, the mom and dad went shopping while I got the girls. They were painting and I was watching. Then we came to a mutual decision to go shopping--really they decided to shop. It was either shopping or the beach and shopping won. KK was so tired that she made the day a little funky. Not many bargains but dreams of a new Coach purse.

Sunday night, Sherry and I got away for dinner at Aunt Kate's. Mixed reviews on the food but good to spend just girl time together.

Monday was more girl time as the girls didn't have school and Dad was home with them all day. We were able to get in some good girl shopping. I got several new shirts, a cute new sweater, earrings, sunglasses and a few other fun things.

Tuesday was flying home. Saying goodbye at the airport is always sad. Tears. I love you's. More Tears.

I miss my friend.

Just Pictures

Full update tomorrow--

Quick Update

Made it to Florida. So excited to see Sharon. Picked up the girls from school and KK has been non stop hugs. The girls are all so big and I can't believe how long it's been since I've seen them. Looking forward to a day of pampering tomorrow.

Pay Back

So guess what the payback is for a vacation. Lots and lots of work and having just three days to catch up because I am leaving for Florida on Thursday. Hip hip hooray. I'm going to Florida. I'm going to Florida.

We have a massage, pedicure, and manicure scheduled for Friday. Disney on Sunday and lots of other fun in between. I am so excited. Time to go see my best friend and her girls.

I wish my hubby was going with me but maybe next time. Six days in Florida. Can you tell I'm excited!

Home, Safe and Sound

I made it home safe and sound. The last day in Sedona, we took a drive up Oak Creek Canyon, beautiful drive and then we went on a two hour hike up Cathedral Rock. I had never really hiked before and loved every minute of the two hours. We got almost to the top but then decided since we didn't have on real hiking boots we had gone far enough. We were up pretty high so I wasn't disappointed. The views were amazing and it was very calming to be there. We then went to another site that was supposed to be a vortex site (a place where energy flow from the earth). I'm not sure if my energy was re-aligned or not but I sure felt peaceful and calm after being there. My friend, Dr. T., knows that it caused her computer not to start right and messed with here cell phone enough that she had to re-start it.

After all that, we were off to Phoenix. The drive was quiet and peaceful, however, my iPhone and co-pilot about lead me astray in Phoenix and had me staying in a commercial warehouse for the night in a not so good part of town. However, they both successfully lead me back to our hotel for the night. We had a good dinner and hot tub then off to bed. I had the worst headache that made it difficult to sleep. We were convinced it was the energy that was changing things in my body.

We made it home around 3:30p on Saturday. Cowboy was sure glad to see me. He treated me like a princess. Motorcycle ride for a sundae, dinner grilled, fire place started and warm and toasty house for me to relax. Breakfast brought to me and a round of golf planned. He is so amazing to me and treats me like a queen. I love that man so much.

I had a great vacation but it was really good to be home. Now three more days and Florida, here I come.

A Second Day in Sedona

Today was our second day in Sedona. We did some site seeing, shopping and took a pink jeep tour. It was a fun day. Not much to say so I'm going to send pictures.

The conference is over. It was very interesting but I'm glad it over. My friend, Dr. T., met me at the airport and we hopped a shuttle to Sedona. Chris, the front desk guy, gave us some good tips on what we need to do while we are here so we are pumped. Tonight was dinner at an amazing restaraunt called Elote. The food was so good. Chris told us to check out the address of the Circle K. The rest of the evening in pics.

Looking forward to the next couple of days.

Off work

Yippee. No work for the next week. Well not exactly no work. I left today for Arizona. The next three day are a conference about our computerized medical record system. How incredibly fun that sounds. Then my friend, Dr.T will be arriving so we can spend a few days in Sedona. Now that's the part of the trip that I'm looking forward to.

I'm missing Cowboy already but it will be good for us to have a few days apart. We'll see if absence makes the heart grow fonder. It would have been fun for him to come with me. The hotel I'm staying at rocks!

She's a deer chaser

Cowboy called this morning and said he shot 3 deer. Well, not exactly shot them. He found them in the yard and they had broken one tree down to the ground, broken the branches off another and ate the leaves out of the top, and the third tree, one we paid good money for had most of the bark rubbed off. He was hot. He got the bb gun out to scare them off.

They came back so he sent Sadie after the deer. Really, what was he thinking?? She did run them off. Thank goodness, they didn't come after her.

Crazy Cowboy. (At least he didn't shoot them.)

Sadie

Sadie has become brave in her old age. Yesterday, she took off chasing a deer that had wondered in our back yard. Not sure what she would have done if she would have caught it or if the big doe would have charged back at her. Silly, silly girl.

Just Pictures

my newest snowman

new christmas decorations

one for the collection

my exciting new shelves that will keep me organized

Foggy morning in KS

Cowboy going for it

from our golfing outing

a beautiful kansas day

Semi-Productive Day

I had big plans to have a very productive day. But it didn't turn out to be very productive, only semi.

Friday night, we took the son and daughter in law to a comedy club for the son's birthday. I can't believe that Cowboy has a son that will be 33 years old. It just doesn't seem possible. We had a fun evening. As we were pulling into our driveway, we got to see three deer. One a buck. We have seen several doe and fawn's but never a buck so it was pretty exciting to see big daddy running around in our very own yard.

We slept in today. My plan was to get the whole house clean and make dinner. I got a headache and things went downhill from there. I took and nap and had a hard time getting off the couch. However, Cowboy and I were able to put up some shelves in the laundry room. That was exciting for me.

I did get a little shopping in, made dinner and got all but 2 bathrooms and the living room cleaned. So I guess the day was semi-productive. I'm still not feeling any better but I'm not feeling any worse.

Life is getting better

The move is over and I have unpacked every box in my office. I have huge piles of paper to go through but they are out of the box. I'm feeling a little more settled and am actually able to do a little more of my own work. The stress is much less.

Home, Cowboy and I have really been acting like newlyweds (wink, wink). We have skipped the gym for the last two mornings to get a little exercise in bed, if you know what I mean. Seriously, life is good at home.

I actually made dinner tonight. Cowboy has been carrying the load around the home and has even spent several hours at work with me hanging whatever I ask him to and unpacking boxes. So tonight, I made dinner and did the dishes.

Life is getting better!

Relaxing Again

So the move is over and we are starting to get settled. I have a long ways to go to get my office in order but I am feeling much better about work. My stress has gone down and I'm able to relax alittle.

This weekend we went to a benefit auction. It was fun and they had harp music. Cowboy became intrigued with the harpest. So much so that he helped her carry her harp out to her vehicle. He is so funny. He then started talking with the security guy. Who ended up knowing someone that he knew. Small world. But Cowboy talks to everyone.

Today I passed up a round of golf on the nicest course within 100 miles. I just didn't want to go. Cowboy took his girlfriend (neighbor, Stevie) and they had a great time. I went shopping and then to the office for about 3 hours. I got lots done and was happy that I went. That will help my week start a little smoother.

I know that I brag about Cowboy all the time but brace yourself, here is just one more story about how well he treats me. My feet have been killing me. Friday, he bought me a foot massager, bubbler soaker thingy. He found it at a garage sale for $2. It's awesome. Gotta love him for thinking of me.

No more being nice

I can't be nice anymore. I really can't. I'm tired. My feet feel like I'm walking with ice pics shoved up my feet. I have walked probably 20 miles in the past two days. I have thrown more stuff in the dumpster that one can imgaine. I have answerd more question than one person should in a year. So I'm tired and I can't be nice anymore.

I have decided that moving really shows a persons true colors. A persons ability to focus on the big picture comes to light or a person's self-centered focus on themselves comes to light. Some people are cooperative and helpful and other are winers and complainers. Some folks can go with the flow and others have a need for instant gratification. So I just can't be nice anymore.

Here's just a glimpse of what I had to deal with:

Where's my desk---a desk was left on a truck by accident so one of the staff members asked every single freakin' person she saw, "Where's my desk". This went on for a good hour. I'll tell you where your freakin' desk is--it going to shoved up your ass if you ask me one more time.

Let me take over the whole space-- another my staff had put all her stuff in the new lobby. When I told her to move it back into her office, her reply was that she didn't have all her stuff. No freakin' shit. But put your boxes and shit back in your office and work around it. At least she got all her stuff in one day. Then today, she moved more of her furniture into the supply room. Get your stuff out. But I don't have room, "I don't care put it in your office." You wanted it, you deal with it. Then, she wanted to put all her stuff in the lobby, because it was her lobby. It's not your freakin' lobby and you are not that important. Keep your shit in your space.


Newspaper guy--why the f*** are you sitting there the entire day reading the newpaper when we have just moved and there is more work around here to do. Get off your ass and work, isn't that what I'm paying your for.

Where's my keys--We have moved into the building about hmmm 3 hours ago and you can't even find your office and you want your keys. Do you not see that there are 25 movers wondering around and furniture flying here and there and you want your keys. Get over it. You'll get your keys when I get your keys and a chance to give them to you.

Oh and I could go on. So I can't be nice anymore.

On a side note, my hubby has been awesome with me working 12 hour days and being dead dog tired and grumpy. Tonight, a great dinner waiting for my arrival home. Maybe I can be nice to him.

much needed break

It was a much needed break.

Cowboy and I left early on Thursday morning. We had a rough start since we got 1 block from the house and I remembered the dog leash. Back to the house and several comments from Cowboy and we were on our way. Then 3 miles from the house and I remembered my phone. Now came lots of comments from Cowboy, I assured him that we would still get there in plenty of time. He finally chilled and we were off.

First stop, Colbert Hills golf course. It is a tough course. We met Caroline who was keeping Sadie for the weekend. Our first round on the course was tough and long and gruelling. We then went around a second time and we both played better. It was fun and very challenging. But long. I never play 36 holes in one day. The off to Wichita for our next part of the trip. We stopped for gas and lunch/supper at a burger king--real romance.

Friday morning, we were up early for breakfast at IHOP and then off to the golf course. We got to play golf by ourselves which was nice. I played well and Cowboy did even better. It was a good day. Off to PFChangs for dinner and then back to the hotel by 6p. We lounged on the bed until night-night time. Cowboy got out in a thunderstorm for ice cream and milk. It was very relaxing.

Saturday morning, up early again for breakfast and golf. We played with a couple of guys. I played an awesome round of golf. The same can not be said for Cowboy. He was not a happy camper and just made for a miserable round of golf until the last 4 holes.

I did hit a 78 yard pitch shot in the hole for a birdie. It was so exciting.

Saturday night was out with a good friend of mine and her husband. We went out for Italian and then to a club where the boys played pool, Cowboy sang karaoke and Stacey and I drank. We had a blast.

Today was back to reality. We met Caroline for lunch and picked up Sadie. The trip was very relaxing and it was good to spend time with my husband. It just makes me look forward to our honeymoon in Vegas in 99 days.

Ready, Set, Golf

Work done as much as I could--check

Bags packed--check

Sexy nighties packed--check, check

Clubs in the car--check

Time to relax and have fun--check

We're leaving out of here at 5:30a--so off to bed soon--check.

blah

work--blah blah blah-same old story

Cowboy- picking up the slack around the house--love him more so for doing that

One more day of work this week and then lots of golf and lots of time away.

Stress--too much for the normal person

I think I need a change in my life..........hmmmm

Countdown is on

The countdown is on. Two days of work and then three days of golf, away from home, with just my Cowboy. Two tee times on Thursday, comfy hotel, golf on Friday, dinner out, golf on Saturday and then a out with friends on Saturday night. I asked Cowboy to make sure that I didn't partake in too many spirits on Saturday night. To which he replied, "We aren't golfing on Sunday." I just don't like hangovers.

Sadie is going to be spoiled while we are gone. She's going on her own vacation.

I'm so excited. Can't wait. Can I leave tomorrow?

Two days of work left...big bummer!

Tired

I know that I have burning the candle at both ends. I know that I am at an all time stress out level. I know that I can't continue at this pace for much longer.

I am so tired. I am tired of being stressed and having my jaw hurt and shoulders tense.

I sat down tonight and just don't feel well. I keep saying, it's going to get better soon, but when. I'm starting not to believe me.

I need a big break. I know we are going away for a long weekend but will that be enough?

Gushing Again

Let me just gush a little more about my husband. I made him go to work with me today to help me pack and move. He was a huge help to me and was a real trooper all day long. After we got home, we went shopping and he bought me a new bracelet and three charms for my birthday.

Here is my new Pandora bracelet. I am so excited. Cowboy is a keeper. I am a lucky woman.

Here a little story behind my bracelet. A couple of years ago I bought my best friend her bracelet and have added charms. For my wedding, as a gift to my best friend, maid-of-honor, and my friend, Dr. T. I bought them both the treasure chest and round pink bead. I wanted to have the same charms as them so, there are the first two beads. The lady at the store suggested to Cowboy the third charm, the forever charm.

Love it!

Just tired

We've been getting up at 5:30p every morning and I been working from 8:30a to 7p and am on the go all day long. I'm just tired. I got home early tonight but only because Cowboy was playing golf and I had to take care of Sadie. I'll work late tomorrow night and have a long day ahead of me on Friday.

We are moving our offices because our landlord is a slum lord. Here a perfect example of how things go around our office building. He had his workers, most not legal and most not skilled, working on the roof of the three story building. They let a pipe roll off the building on to the top of an employees car--smashing in her windshield and then bouncing off another car doing damage to it. (By the way, this has happened before.) We can not get out of the building fast enough. 1 week to a new office.

Mrs. President

You can now call me Madam President. I was officially elected President of our Home Owners Association. Let the fun begin. It's an neighborhood with the old timers--some being the first owner of the home they are living in and then the newbies like me.

Cowboy asked what his title would be... The First Man.


Let the fun begin.

Trading Custody

Me to Cowboy: " I have an idea. One week, you let Sadie out to pee at night and give her her bedtime snack and I'll get up with her at 5:30a to feed her and then the next week we will trade custody duties."

Cowboy to Me: "How about if we do that, you clean up the poop out of the yard everyday."

Me to Cowboy: "I'll keeping doing what I do."

Remembering 9/11

I remember 9/11. But as the years go by, I remember 9/11 a little less. I don't forget what happened but I don't remember how it felt. I don't remember that awe and horror I felt as I just sat there and watched the events ...until now. I'm watching it on the History channel and am just as riveted as I was then. My heart feels heavy as it did them. The feelings of sadness and disbelief come rushing back. As I watching and seeing people jump out of the building, I just can't imagine how it must have felt for those who were in the building, who had just exited the building, who were trying to fight the fire, who were answering the phones and those who knew they were going to died.

It was a very sad day in American history. I hope and pray that we will never experience that again. I hope and pray that everyone who died that day are in Heaven. I hope and pray that all those who lost loved ones that day have been able to heal.

I'm thankful for those who protect our country. I'm thankful that I live in America.

I remember.

Work......

Today was a little bit better, not much but a little bit.

It's official, we had to move back our move date. It was scheduled for Sept 17th and 18th and then I was going to take the 24th and 25th off work--a much needed break. But the move will now be the 24th and the 28th. Dammit, I'm still going on my mini vacation.

Carolina--Sadie is all yours that weekend. She is looking forward to her mini vacation.

Work cannot control my life. Work cannot control my life. Dammit, work cannot control my life.

Bad Day

It was a bad, long day. I'm glad it's almost over.

We went to the farm for the weekend to see the family. Got to spend some good quality time with mom and dad. That did well for relaxing and getting rid of some stress. That lead to today.

Here it is:

No food for lunch.

Went to wrong location for work today (I know, I know)

Forgot my phone (ie. brain)

Forgot to lead a group for the clients--so I was 15 minutes late.

Only had oatmeal for lunch because that was all that was in the desk drawer.

About had a panic attack when I thought a proposal was due today. (it's due next monday)

Found out our office move had to be postponed and I rescheduled it during my vacation--not smart.

Have an employee who doesn't want to do a new part of his job so he's being very passive aggressive.

Had to work late.

Came home and spent 3 hours in the kitchen, cooking, making salsa and freezing tomatoes.

OH SO TIRED!!!!

In the midst of Chaos

In the midst of all the chaos with work and all the stress that I feel like I am under, I have decided to plan a get-away for my Cowboy and me. I'm getting pretty excited about it. We are going to Manhattan on Thursday to play golf--a really nice course that I found a coupon for $55 for all you can play on that day. Then it's off to Wichita to stay there and hopefully go out with some friends. We will then play golf at a local course for the next two days. So excited about this. Then it's off to a small town bed and breakfast for dinner and a nights stay there. The best part, it's my birthday weekend and I'm going to be getting away!

Sing

My new stress reliever...sing. Sing loud. Sing strong. I'm just going to sing. I've cranked my radio up loud and whether I know the words or not, I'm going to sing.

The Stress Returns

We had a pretty good weekend--well for the most part.

I went to my secretary's son's funeral on Saturday morning. The church was packed. Lots of young kids were there. The service was really nice. My heart just goes out to A and her family. She is having a very difficult time, understandably so. I talked with her a little last night. The police have no leads and lots of leads all at the same time. Some kids are talking but nothing that would lead to an arrest.

The rest of Saturday, I did a little shopping. Sunday was golf. I didn't play to good and neither did Cowboy. It was new course and pretty tough for the first time playing. But the weather was beautiful.

I was starting to feel the stress ebb just a little and then bam--back to work today. It just reminds me of all the work that I have to do on the next 3 weeks. I am just fried! Watch out, October--vacation time for me.

Cowboy did great this evening. When I got home, the yard looked like something out of better homes and garden, just beautiful. Dinner was ready. He had a great jambalaya...so yummy.

He just brought me a brownie with ice cream....gotta love that man.

Oh yeah!

I forgot something from this week. I fired one of my staff on Monday. She so needed to go and continued to lie about the reason that she that she go fired. Apparently, her being fired will provide her with the ammunition to stop my "anti-social" personality from treating people so horribly.

As if I needed more drama in my life........

Week in ReView

So here is my week in review

*Sunday the tragic new of my secretaries son. A very sad situation that keeps me wondering how someone survives losing their child.

* Monday I worked from 8:30a to 9:30p and was so tired. Going from one place to the next and one important thing to the next, making lots of decisions that make my head spin and the lists gets longer an longer.

*Tuesday--repeat Monday but get home at 6:30p--hip hip horray for Taco Tuesday

*Wednesday--repeat Monday and Tuesday--except with one long meeting from noon to 4p and home somewhat early at 5:30p

*Thursday-repeat Monday but home at 8:30p--so so tired and the stress is just one huge know in my neck and jaws.

Friday- repeat every other day of the week but with plans of leaving work early--5:15p--so much for leaving early.

Tomorrow is the funeral and then I have to spend my day writing two proposals.

Sunday--Golf with my hubby!

Can I have more weekend time, pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssssssseeeeee!!!

Good Food

So if nothing else is going good in my life (read to mean work still sucks big time) my wonderful husband makes sure that I am eating well. After an early morning workout, I was surprised by a yummy breakfast of eggs scrambled with ham and onions in them, toast with blackberry jam and fresh tomato.

Then after a long day of work, dinner consisted of grilled pork chops, baked beans and mac and cheese. I am so lucky to have a great husband that can cook!




Just a side note about work--the freak has been exceptionally nice and I got to fire my crazy counselor. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.

I'm tired

I have been having a hard time sleeping at night. I am so tired and just want to sleep but I wake up around 2a and can't go back to sleep. I would pay for a good night sleep.

Shocking News

I got a call today about 8a from my secretary. Weird a call on Sunday morning. She was crying hysterical. I never would have imagined what she would say next. She called to tell me that she didn't know when she would be back at work. Her son was murdered last night. He about 15 years old. Someone walked up to the house, specifically his bedroom window and shot him in the head while he was in bed about 11p on Saturday night and he died at 4a on Sunday morning.

What shocking new! I feel so bad for her. She is a single mom trying to raise 3 teenage children on her own. My heart goes out to her and her family.

So So Date/Great Golf

The past couple of weeks we have been playing golf with the son and daughter-in-law. The DIL is pretty new at golfing. We have been riding in the golf carts together. I tend to be a little more patient then her husband and can give her a little better instruction without getting frustrated. However, it tends to throw my golf game off a little because I get more focused on trying to help her than play my own game. I really don't mind a whole lot because I remember being there.

Today was a different story. We played at a brand new course for all of us. I was originally going to ride with my hubby but it didn't end that way. So the DIL and I rode together. Much to my delight, I played really well. I was relaxed and focused on my game the whole day (well, except for four holes). The holes that I struggled on, I still did pretty well. I was very pleasantly surprised with a 93 for the day. Cowboy shot a 89 so I wasn't to far behind him.

Going back a day, I've been working pretty long hours and decided that we needed to have a date night. I left work at 4:30 with plans on hitting a favorite Chinese food place and then going to the movie. I called Cowboy on my way home and left a message for him to call me.

When I get home, no Cowboy. Sadie still in her kennel. Around 5:30, Cowboy calls. "I'm still at an auction with Stevie or maybe I'm on the golf course." "Well, I would say you are on the golf course since your clubs and shoes are gone". I was a little upset but made a decision to remain calm. He knew how important this was to me. He hurried home and we went to dinner and made it to our movie. All was good.

We were talking about it tonight because Stevie told him that I would be pissed and he would be in the dog house. Cowboy commented that he was thankful that I wasn't angry because he thought I knew he was sorry and that he would never do that again. Funny thing about it, I knew that he knew he was wrong. I also believe in my heart that he won't do that again. He wasn't late intentionally. He really did have enough time to play golf but the round was slow.

He won't do it again. And I'll still love him if he does. Although I will be pissed as hell next time.

Camera

Tonight was a night that I needed to have my camera with me. I work in mid-town, not a particually great area of town. I was working late tonight so on my way home I saw the most intriguing thing.

There was a black gentleman probably around 60 years old walking down the street with a graduation cap and gown on.

I needed my camera.

People are very interesting.

HOA

We have lived in our neighborhood for 21 months. For 12 of those months, I have been the vice-president of the home owners association. (Really, I'm not sure how I get myself into these situations) and it looks like I will be the next president. The current president I am quite certain has never been the president of anything. Which bring me to the reason that I'm writing about this.

Two weeks ago, she put out a notice of the next meeting. She didn't follow any of the bi-laws and it upset the "old timers" of the neighborhood. So we "the newcomers" were summonsed to a meeting with the "old timers". Oh what fun.

The outgoing president was pretty defensive. I, being the good social worker that I am, got to play the very diplomatic voice of the group. Times are a changin' my dear "old timers". Times are a changin'.

I'm going to have a fun year.

Sadie Update

So I posted a picture of the nasty spot on Sadie's toe. Oh the woes that go with that. She was put on antibiotics and an anti-inflammatory on that Saturday. Then about Tuesday in the middle of the night, I woke up to her puking. Big pile of puke on the bedroom floor at 1:30a, so I got up to clean it up. Then on Wednesday, she wasn't eating right. Not eating her breakfast and turning up her nose at dinner. She also puked three more times that day much to Cowboy's dismay. So on Thursday, I took her off all the medication. Her foot was looking better but still not healed. I called the vet and he gave me a different medication. I started her on the pills on Saturday. She did fine for a couple of days but then went back to not eating and seeming to have an upset stomach. Her foot is still not healed all the way but I have decided to take her off the pills again.

The one area that I feel like a total failure with my Sadie is when she not feeling well. I wish she could tell me what was wrong and I wish that I could fix it for her. I really hate it when it when my baby girl is sick.

Poor Sadie.

I'm tired

After one day of work, I'm tired. It could be because I didn't sleep well last night. Although I should have, our weekend ended up being a little more busy than we planned.

Saturday was playing golf. I didn't shoot very well but it was fun. We went grocery shopping afterwards and then just hung out. Around 10 o'clock I get a call from my big sis asking if my nephew and his family could crash at our house. No problem for me. I went to tell Cowboy and it threw him off his square. He is a planner and doesn't like surprises. It took him about 5 minutes to gather his wits and then he was great.

So we had a whirlwind overnight stay of my nephew, and his family. Cowboy got up and made a great breakfast for all of us. Then it was off to the Wizards professional soccer game for a fundraiser. I don't like soccer and our seats were by the die-hard's section where they pounded on a drum for a solid 90 minutes. Yuck! Don't think I'll be going back anytime soon.

Last night, Sadie and I got caught walking in thunder/rain storm. We were soaking wet when we got home. So I was a tired puppy.

I think I thought about work all night when I was sleeping so I didn't really get any rest. Cowboy and I were up and at the gym by 5:30a so hopefully I'll sleep tonight!